This weekend!

Toronto tomorrow with my best girl friends! Then partying in Markham for the night with the boys from Days fuckin' Fade and The Fitzpatrick Incident.
Couldn't be more stoked!







We baked them the most delicious treats.

April 10th isn't coming soon enough. Miss you, miss you, miss you, really wanna kiss you.

Please understand..

This isn't just goodbye. This is I can't stand you.

My bucket list, thus far.

1. Learn a new language. And then another.
2. Quit smoking for good.
3. Get a job, save money.
4. Move to Los Angeles
5. Hawaii
6. Fiji
7. Get blazed in Amsterdam.
8. Own a real designer handbag.
9. Spend at least $300 on a pair of shoes.
10. Find biological parents.
11. Learn to surf.
12. Backpack through Europe.
13. Fall deeply in love. Helplessly and unconditionally.
14. Blow off all holidays for an entire year.
15. See all of America’s National Parks and go whitewater rafting in the Grand Canyon.
16. Learn to love eating healthy.
17 Learn to be totally honest even when it pisses people off.
18. Visit Africa, spend a couple days at the Giraffe Manor in Kenya. Go on a wildlife safari.
19. Snorkel the Great Barrier Reef.
20. Snorkel in Bermuda.
21. Spend New Year's Eve in Times Square.
22. Go to a Broadway show.
23. Visit Peru. Go to Machu Picchu, fly over the Nazca Lines, then fly to Rapa Nui from Cuzco to see the Moai.
24. Visit Iguazu Falls.
25. Spend Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
26. Take an Alaskan Cruise.
27. See the Northern Lights.
28. Visit Thailand, Nepal and Tibet. Ride an elephant.
29. Visit the Egyptian pyramids and the Sphinx. Ride a camel.
30. Go up in a hot air balloon.
31. See Volcanoes National Park, Akaka Falls State Park.
32. Skydive.
33. Eat Sushi in Japan.
34. Ride in a gondola in Venice.
35. Cruise the Greek Isles.
36. Walk on the Great Wall of China.
37. Stay a night in Dracula's Castle.
38. Fly a plane.
39. Conquer my fear of small enclosed spaces.
40. Drive a Shelby Mustang.
41. Spend a whole day eating junk food without feeling guilty.
42. Send a message in a bottle.
43. Be someone's mentor.
44. See a lunar eclipse.
45. Drink beer at Oktoberfest in Munich.
46. Spend a whole day reading a great book.
47. Drive the Autobahn.
48. Write a novel.
49. Drive across America from coast to coast.
50. Learn to play a musical instrument with some degree of skill.
51. Visit Tanzania, climb Mt. Kilimanjaro.
52. Run a marathon.
53. Participate in a protest.
54. Capture a great moment on camera.
55. Write a thank you letter to someone who influenced me.
56. Create a budget and stick to it.
57. Start a garden from scratch.
58. Have a walk-in closet.
59. Fire a gun.
60. Find something to smile about every day.
61. Take a year off to travel and do charity work.
62. Swim with sharks.
63. Look for witches in Salem.
64. Go somewhere where the sun never sets (Antarctica)
65. Have a job I love that allows me a lot of time off to travel.
66. Save a life.
67. Look like a goddess in short shorts at 50 yrs.
68. Be a sexy and active until at least 90 yrs.
69. Do something no one else has ever done.
70. Fall in love with a baby orangutan while volunteering at a orangutan rehab center in Asia.
71. See a performance of the Imperial Russian Ballet - in Russia.
72. Do more, take less.
73. Have it all.
74. Attend a fashion show in Milan.
75. Shop in Rodeo Drive.
76. Learn to drive stick shift.
77. Find a four leaf clover.
78. Learn how to hot wire a car.
79. Go to at least 50 different zoos. (2/50)
80. Decorate an entire wall with fortunes from fortune cookies.
81. Learn how to pick locks.
82. Go on an archaeological dig.

I will add more things as I think of them.

Call me a safe bet, I'm betting I'm not.

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am.
And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am.
I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate.
A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone.
Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way.
And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.
It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds.
So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed.
Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.
I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget...

You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones.
Spring keeps you ever close.
You are second hand smoke.
You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins.
Holding onto yourself the best you can.
You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins.

Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not.

I'm glad that you can forgive.
I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.

Tr000th.

"Our lives are not as limited as we think they are. The world is a wonderfully weird place. Consensual reality is significantly flawed. No institution can be trusted, but love does work. All things are possible, and we all could be happy and fulfilled if we only had the guts to be truly free and the wisdom to shrink our egos and quit taking ourselves so damn seriously."

— Tom Robbins

Just so you know..

The sight of you breaks my heart.

These butterflies in my stomach, they could bring me to my knees.

Work tomorrow (today) is going to be HELL.



Tonight was so worth it.